February 05, 2013

Accutane | Week 15

I am not one to enjoy pity parties.
Perhaps you might feel that this has nothing to do with acne but, I think this might be beneficial for the young ones in college/university... And frankly I didn't want to make a separate post.

As I have mentioned before I am a graduate of a Civil Engineering Tech program. In the begin of my college career I was excited and even enthusiastic about school and the people getting to meet. As time progressed I started to feel really bitter about my choice to go into Civil Engineering and I started to feel very sad. In my second year I failed a class that was a pre-requisite for the following year. I wont sit here and say that it wasn't my fault but when you are bordering depression you just can't find the energy or motivation to do the simple things.

I often would lay in bed not wanting to get up or face going to school. Nothing horrible had happened to me but I did slip into the action of living just to breath. I was not being a true participant in the world around me.

I never sought help from a doctor, friends or family members because frankly it would have been frowned on. What did I have to complain about? Nothing. I should have been happy... ecstatic for the changes happening in my live.

I don't know what trigger the deep slumber I fell into, nor do I understand what pulled me out. In the winter of 2011 I awoke one morning and felt alive. Like I had truly be awaken. I no longer felt unaffected by people and events.

Sadly, when you do 'wake-up' you realize that your non-action or your neutral being has left you in an infant. I felt left behind. It's like when your pushed forward and lack the ability or proper foundation to learn new material or make the right choice. In my third year I was in a complete haze. I needed to refresh the things that I should have learned.

 I have always been an instant gratification person and probably will continue to be that way. School didn't provided me with the gratification I needed. There were always people who were better than me and had more connections then I did.

Try to start motivated. Be hard on yourself. Grab life by the balls and don't let go. Any failures that you experience try to pass them with grace. You will look back, standing on top of a mountain, and see the remains of the distraught person you once were.

It is easier for persons who have gotten to that level of feeling blue to let themselves slip again but strive to be better. If you need to cry... Go ahead, let it out. If you feel you suck at your job... There is always tomorrow. Or if your Accutane/Acne journey feels likes its coming to a halt remind yourself that the journey isn't over. You've just started. You might not have what you expected but your a lot further ahead for trying.

Alright people this is what my skin looks like, and just for fun I am going to overload this post with my face!

As you can tell the pigmentation has improved drastically.

 So, I guess I have a doctors appointment today... I will finally be able to show the doctor what the hell is growing on my arm. This week I had three break outs and my eye lids are looking super thin. I am not feeling down but I have lost my 'zest'. So basically, no dressing up, sweat pants all day and no kisses for my bf. What else? My temper has been off the walls. I have also been very forgetful this week.

Side note... You know how in my 'Big, Fat Greek wedding' the dad was a huge fan of Windex? At my house it's Vaseline.  I hadn't even finished showing my parents my arm when they whipped out a huge tube. Got to love parents and their funny quirks.

I will see you soon beautiful.
Keep smiling.
Or 'just keep swimming'
I love you.

February 02, 2013

Haul | Clarins Spring Collection, Hair and Drug Store Make-up

I purchased a couple products this week and wanted to share them with you!

I got the Keratin Smooth Out/Blow Out treatment done early December. The system that we used was from the company Global Keratin and I was recommended to use their products. When I originally purchased my conditioner and shampoo I purchased the moisturizing conditioner not the balancing one I have now. Honestly I love how light and nourishing they feel on my hair. Each one cost roughly $25 Canadian. If anyone is curious, the Keratin treatment cost around $250 Canadian and it is not like the Brazillian blow out. This is not as harmful and costs less but does not leave you with pin straight hair. It basically de-frizzes your hair.

I went a little crazy at the drug store. The Revlon Just Bitten Kissable Balm Stains are a little pricey at $12 a pop. Luckily I got three of them on sale for $6. I probably should have grabbed all the colours available but self control took over.

I have the following colours. Adore and Honey were the first ones I bought and they kick started this obsession.

Some swatches for y'all.... Sadly the above picture does not match the swatches. I fail!
Adore, Honey, Precious, Rendez-Vous, Charm

So I've been having a *you know* of a time finding a good mascara  They all seem to flake and do nothing for my eyelashes. I am usually the last person to jump on band wagons and this is no different. People are always talking about this line of mascaras and boy did I wait forever to buy Maybelline The Falsies Volum'Express. 

The last and perhaps the most exciting bits for this week have been to get my hands on two products from Clarins Spring Collection 2013. I bought a Rouge Eclat lipstick, apparently I said it wrong in my video, in the colour 02 Sweet Rose. This is a stunning colour. 

I did end up getting a little sampler so I can show you some of the other colours. 
01. Nude, 04. Tropical Pink, 06. True Aubergine, 13. Woodrose
The last one is a swatch of the Prodige blush I picked up called 01 Lovely Rose.

What blush...? See below.

So this is what the packaging looks like. You can see that I got into this blush by the state of the mirror. I just couldn't help myself.

Here is a close up. When I was looking at the blushes on-line I wanted to get Miami Pink but it ended up looking to red based in person.

I thought I should show you the different lips colours. I think it's help full to see them on and I wanted to model for you. 
My lips are a little pigmented and I know they are weird looking.

01. Nude Rose
02. Sweet Rose

04. Tropical Pink

13. Woodrose

06. True Aubergine

I tried to keep my smile consistent... Do you think I succeeded?
 I love the wear and look of these.
I'm tempted to get 04. Topical Pink and 06. True Aubergine. 
We will see what the upcoming weeks bring.

Alright people that's it for today.
Chio for now!